Life, Love and Blueberries

Hey there! Me again :) So I'm leaving tomorrow morning for New Orleans. I'm half way done with my packing (just got a few things left to get together) and I'm currently sitting here, eating frozen blueberries (well... partially frozen blueberries. I stuck them in the microwave for 25 second so they weren't totally frozen) and drinking sweet tea (I am a Texan. Therefore, I like my tea sweet.) Mark is on his way to Indonesia. He left yesterday... and now I won't see him again until some time after he gets back (they are coming home August 1) and he is going to be a total ZOMBIE; there's a 12 hour time difference between us and Indonesia (for example. right now it is 1:21 pm. in Indonesia it's the same time... only 1:21 AM.) So yeah, he's gonna be pretty much dead when he first gets home. And it's a 26 hour flight to get there.

Want to know something really pathetic? It's only been a day and I already miss him :( And the thing is, I won't even get to talk to him on my cell, which means I more than likely won't be getting any texts from him. Yeah I know, I'll survive. But... I'm already starting to miss hearing his voice. He makes a great effort to call me every day and talk, even if it's just for a little while. And now I have to wait until he comes back to hear his voice :( Yes, call me sentimental, but I am going to miss his voice... and his eyes... and his face... and... oh heck with it, I'm gonna miss everything about him! But it will be nice to get away from everything for a little while. I REALLY need a change of scenery, and I desperately need to reconnect with God. So this trip will be good for me. And Mark told me to be praying for our relationship.

You see, Mark told me at the beginning of our relationship that come August we would sit down together and discuss whether we want to get serious or not. Some people would probably say that we're already serious, just because we've been dating for almost 7 months now, and we're really close. But I don't think so. I think we could be a lot closer, and I'm kind of nervous/excited for when he comes back. Nervous, because I don't want to lose him. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I care so much for him. I've even began to wonder if... maybe he's "the one" ya know? And then I have to tell myself to stop dreaming and get head down from the clouds and face reality. And I'm excited because I'll get to see him again :) and if we do decide to get serious... well, I don't think I need to explain why that would make me excited :)

And now my blueberries are gone... and I'm sad... oh well, I still got my sweet tea. Well, I should probably go. I need to shower and stuff, and then finish packing. So this will be my last post, until I get back next Friday. Bye for now! :) And please be praying for Mark, and my 2 other friends, Alyssa and Jared, and pray for everyone else that is in Indonesia. Thanks :)