Darkness

The darkness.
There is just something about it that draws people to
Itself;
The mystery, the unknown, the thrill of something
Different.
Many people are drawn to the darkness because it
Offers them something:
A different lifestyle,
A rush of adrenaline at the thought of doing something
Reckless,
A chance to get everything you've ever dreamed of and wanted.
A chance to have all of your desires and longings be fulfilled.

Everyone has something inside of them that is
Dark.
Maybe it's that addiction you have,
The one thing (or person) that you just can't live
Without,
The one person that is the center of your
World, or the one thing you do that you just
Can't
Stop
Doing.
Maybe it's that alter-ego,
The ugly side of you that no on ever sees.
Or, maybe it's all those dark, deep and secret thoughts that
No one
Knows about.
You know, those thoughts you have in the middle of the
Night,
Or when you're all alone and suddenly you find yourself
Thinking
Things you would normally never think.
The addictions, the alter-egos, the thoughts,
They are all a part of the
Darkness.

People have tried for centuries to defeat the
Darkness
Of this world;
To destroy it, to obliterate it from the face of the
Earth...
But, so far, no man has ever been able to succeed...
Well...
One did.
His name was Jesus, and He did a lot of amazing things.
He was God in human flesh, and He came to
Destroy the darkness.
But...
There's still darkness in this world.
And, you know what the scariest part is?
It's inside of all of us.
Darkness is in the heart of every human being,
No matter how good of a person they try to be.

Because this darkness is inside of everyone,
We all have the capacity for evil.
We all have the ability to do terrible things:
Steal, murder, cheat, lie.
All of those things are usually regarded as great acts of
Darkness.
But...
There are lots of smaller acts of darkness:
Ignoring your friends, and continuing to be
Angry and bitter towards them when you should
Forgive them for hurting you, and forget all that they did to you.
Abusing an animal for no other reason other than that you want to see it
Suffer.
Killing a baby, who is not even born yet, just because you are
Selfish
And don't want the responsibility of taking care of a
Child.
These are only a few of the millions of smaller acts of
Darkness,
Only a few small examples of the darkness that lies inside of
Everyone.

Someday...
Someday, I want to be free of this
Darkness.
Completely, totally and absolutely
Free.
For you see, the darkness just doesn't hurt other
People,
It hurts me... a lot.
It hurts me probably more than it hurts the others around
Me.
I could be wrong about that, but it sure doesn't feel like it.
This darkness has a strong hold on me, a very strong hold.
It has me gripped in its icy claws and is not wanting to
Let go.
It has me trapped, isolated from everyone who cares about
Me,
Because it doesn't want me to break free.
Ever.
It wants to hold on to me forever and always.

The darkness has me trapped in the worse place ever:
The past.
It has me trapped in my past, and keeps replaying
Memories
Over, and over, and over, and over, and over again until...

Nothing has happened... yet.
But I know it's only a matter of time before my
Past
Comes crashing in on me, 
And I'm afraid of what will happen when it does. 
I can only hope that when it does that I will be
Strong
Enough to fight back...
I hope.

Darkness.
It is all around us... and inside of
All of us.