Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend

Just for the record, no, I'm not going to be talking about diamonds or any other sort of jewels; this song is stuck in my head, so that's what I decided to title this entry :) fun right? Yep! Hahaha :P Anyway, I should give you an update on what's happening. I'm still going to meet Mark tomorrow so we can have our "talk" and I think it's safe to say we are both nervous. BUT! We decided last night that we won't make a final decision until Monday or Tuesday, after we've both had time to think over everything. Which is perfectly fine with me. What I was really worried about was having to make a decision on Friday, since I would already be stressed and under pressure. Now I'll have the weekend to think things over *insert big sigh of relief here* Yeah, I'm a lot less stressed now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still worried about this talk, but not as much anymore, now that we'll both have time to think it all over, before making a decision.

Also, I've decided to get over my hatred of having my picture taken. Yeah, I really hate having people take pictures of me (unless I'm in costume or have some kind of make-up on. Otherwise, you can forget it.) There are very few pictures that I like of myself, and mostly the reason for this is primarily because I've always hated how I look, ever since I was a kid. Hence where the eating disorder came from. Yes, I had an eating disorder. Anorexia, to be exact. No, I'm not going to go into detail about how painful it was for my family and friends to watch me slowly kill myself, and I'm definitely not going to talk about the time that I spent in a treatment center, recovering from this addiction. I will tell you more about all that as these blogs progress.

Anyway, back to what I was saying. I decided yesterday afternoon that I would begin the process of not hating my picture being taken, so I took my camera, went outside and took A LOT of pictures, and they all actually turned out really good :) I was impressed with myself... and I also began to see something else; how beautiful I am. Yeah, yeah, I know, it's not about what you look like on the outside that counts, and yes, I know that God made me beautiful, because He can't make anything ugly, but... it's nice to finally be able to see for myself how beautiful I really am. My only dislike about the pictures is that my skin looks so bad -_- I should have put make-up on before I took the pictures, but oh well. Maybe I'll take some more pictures another day, and I'll be sure to put on some make-up before.

So yeah, that's what's going on right now. Yeah I know, not very exciting, is it? But it's my life, and it's the only one I got, so I'm going to enjoy it while I've got it :) later, peeps! oh! by the way, here's the pictures if you want to take a look :) http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=74478&id=1250234882&l=acfd1e8fc7