Work outs, School, Broadway and Break ups

These last two days I've been going to the gym at LSC - Kingwood with Kayse Poland and Brittney Alonso, two of my very good friends who have been a great support system for me during these past few days. Our plan is to get back into shape before school starts next week by going to the gym every day this week (with the exception of Friday and Saturday, because the college gym isn't open on those days) and my motivation for this is I'm also hoping that by getting back into shape I'll catch the eyes of some hotties ;) right now, it's the only motivation I have. I know that sounds terrible, because I should want to get in shape in order to stay healthy. But I can't help it; I want to look good in order to attract a guy. And I want to feel good about myself, on top of that. Oh, and there's also the fact that once school starts I won't be able to get to the gym much, so I'm doing what can now (but then again, I'll also be taking ballet this fall, so that will give me a work out two days a week.)

I am somewhat excited for the fall semester to start; new class (ballet) and also it will keep me busy with all the homework I'll have. And I'm going to be busy helping out with a musical comedy called 'Johnny Be Good!' at the Nathaniel Center. The same place where I got my first "big break" as I like to call it. I'll write about all my experiences on stage later. Now back to my original point. I did JBG back in 2008 at the Nathaniel Center, and even though I did have fun, I didn't really want to ever do it again (unlike 'The Swarthy Seadog', which I just did for the second time this spring.) My only problem with JBG was this: too much dancing. At least, for me it was too much dancing, and of course, as you probably figured out, dancing is definitely NOT my strong point (hence why I am taking ballet this fall, so I can get better at dancing.) So, on top of knowing I was going to have a very stressful fall semester, I told Ms. Brenda, the director (and a good friend of mine) that I wouldn't be able to take part in JBG this time, but that I would love to help out in any way I can. Then she text me, asking me if I would like to be a stage manager for the show.

Well, if there was ever a window of opportunity in my life, this was it. A chance to do something else besides being on the stage, and it would look good on a resume for future auditions too! How great is this! So I happily accepted my role as stage manager. And that brings me to this statement: Someday I am going to make it big on Broadway.

Yes, my friends, I am a Broadway fanatic, and I am not ashamed to admit it. Just recently, my dad got me a book from the library called "I'm The Greatest Star" by Robert Viagas. Basically it's a book about all of the greatest Broadway stars from the 1900s all the way to today... and it has really inspired me, especially during this difficult transition of going from being in a relationship to being single practically overnight. It tells the story of each actor or actress, from beginning to end, all about their lives and how they made it big. And it has inspired me SO MUCH lately that now I have a new goal. When I graduate from whatever college I go to later on after I've graduated from LSC, I am going to go to New York City and try to make it big. And, if it doesn't work out, I plan to come back to Texas to teach drama. That's basically my only plan in life. Yes, I know, it sounds crazy and far-fetched and insane and completely idiotic, but it's what I want to do. It's the only thing that is keeping me in school now, because I want to be the girl who knows what she's doing when she auditions for a big show, the girl who can read music and has had an education in learning the basic fundamentals of music.

Sorry, I know I'm writting a lot, but I think it's a good thing. It means I'm starting to get back to my "normal" self and moving on with my life. Which brings me to the next topic: the break up. Yeah, I know I've written a lot about it, but it's only because I am still trying to get through the slow process of healing my broken heart (and yes, I know that sounds very melo-dramatic, but it's true.) I've been thinking about something lately. What if I never find my Romeo, my Knight in Shining Armor, my hero? Let's face it, there just aren't any decent guys out there anymore. There just isn't. And the things I want/need in a guy aren't realistic accorinding to today's standards (and no, I'm not going to post on here all the things that I want in a guy. You'll have to get to know me first.) It scares me to think that there's absolutely NO ONE out there that is perfect for me... it scares me A LOT.

And on that note I think I should go. Nick Doremus is wanting me to this new entry on Facebook so he can read it hahaha :P later, peeps!