It's a love story, baby, just say 'yes'

"And I said, "Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone. I'll be waiting, all that's left to do is run. You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess, it's a love story, baby, just say 'yes'."

So... Mark and I are going to take a break. It's not my favorite option, but it's the only one we have right now. To keep dating is not an option right now, because he is over thinking this way too much! I'm so frustrated right now! (punches a hole in the wall) ARRRRGH!!!!!!!!! He's so indecisive! He doesn't seem to know what he wants! And here's what I still don't get: he says he still really likes me, but he was going to break up with me anyway! He did, at first; we totally broke up. But then, I was thinking to myself, "No... no, this isn't going to happen. Not this way. I'm not letting this go without a fight first." For 3 reasons:

1. It's completely illogical to break up with someone and then turn around and tell them, "But I still really like you." That just doesn't make any sense! And that's what he did! I don't get it! If he still really like me like he says he does, then why would he wants us to break up?!

2. No matter what he says, I really do like him in the way that my feelings portray themselves. Yeah, maybe I've let them take control of me and let them get blown out of proportion, but those feelings of attraction (both physically and mentally) are still there, and I'm not going to let something really good go when it can be worked out.

3. We've got something really good going on, and I would hate to see it end like this. It hurts me to know that he doesn't seem to know what he wants, and yet he tells me he still really likes me. Well, if he still really likes me, then why doesn't he know what he wants? I'M NOT ASKING FOR A FREAKIN RING HERE!!!!!!!! I'M NOT ASKING FOR A PROPOSAL!!!!!!! All I'm asking for is a second chance to show him that I still feel the same about him, and to give him a chance to genuinely think about what he wants.

I'm hurt. I'm really, really hurt. And I'm also very confused, frustrated and scared. At this point I'm not sure what I should do. And here's the strange thing: it feels like we broke up, even though we really didn't. But you know what? I'm starting to discover that I could probably survive, maybe even go on with my life and still have high hopes for the future even if we do break up. It's funny... you would think that listening to the song "Love Story" by Taylor Swift would make me really sad, but strangely enough it makes me really happy. It makes me hopeful for a better future, and that maybe, just maybe, my Prince Charming is still out there somewhere, waiting to find me. It gives me the kind of hope that I too can have a happy ending, that life doesn't have to end just because the first guy to come along in my life and have romantic feelings for me turns out to may not be "The One"

Yes, I will miss Mark a lot if we break up. Yeah, it's gonna hurt like crazy, it's gonna be painful and I definitely won't forget about it for a while. But you know what? I think I'll be okay. In the end, in the long wrong, I think I'll be okay :)